I began to get used to this sort of thing, and became more inventive. Basically, I use my own children for satanic sexual worship. And was even trying to find a way to get my wife involved in it too.

There was no limit anymore to this, nor was there anything that could make me feel shameful anymore. I was hooked, and I could not stop. It had all gone too far. If I stopped, they would expose me, I knew. During this time I thought that I could find a way out of this - later.

I was hopeless when Jesus basically said, "I still love you, but you are broken and the break is hurting your whole life. Here's what you must do to be healed". To get freedom from my torment, I knew what I would have to do. God made me an offer that I couldn't refuse.

I acknowledge that I did these terrible things to my family, and I am deeply sorry for it. My sin has affected so many people."